Brady Garrett needs to go home. He’s a conscripted recruit on Defender Three, one of a network of stations designed to protect the Earth from alien attack. He’s also angry, homesick, and afraid. If he doesn’t get home he’ll lose his family, but there’s no way back except in a body bag.
Cameron Rushton needs a heartbeat. Four years ago Cam was taken by the Faceless — the alien race that almost destroyed Earth. Now he’s back, and when the doctors make a mess of getting him out of stasis, Brady becomes his temporary human pacemaker. Except they’re sharing more than a heartbeat: they’re sharing thoughts, memories, and some very vivid dreams.
Not that Brady’s got time to worry about his growing attraction to another guy, especially the one guy in the universe who can read his mind. It doesn’t mean anything. It’s just biochemistry and electrical impulses. It doesn’t change the truth: Brady’s alone in the universe.
Now the Faceless are coming and there’s nothing anyone can do. You can’t stop your nightmares. Cam says everyone will live, but Cam’s probably a traitor and a liar like the military thinks. But that’s okay. Guys like Brady don’t expect happy endings.
4.5 who said I didn’t like Sci-Fi stars
Who knew I would enjoy a book where the setting is in space with aliens and dark holes, vacuums that will suck the life out of you and kill you and feel nothing????? I didn’t! I’m so glad I read it.
This book will pull at your heart strings, will make you hate dark holes, dark spaces, make you horny, nervous, giddy, lost, alone and make you wish for a HEA, pray for it, want it, feel it. It makes you feel black and dismal.
It just makes you feel
“He was slender, but he wasn’t scrawny. He had long, lean lines of a runner, and in my minds eye I caught a glimpse of a narrow glittering beach. I could almost feel the sand between my toes as I ran, and twin suns beating down my back.” Bray-dee
“Just feel.” His voice was low. I drew a deep breath and held it for a minute. When I let it out, I felt my resistance go with it. I was in a dark place, but this time I wasn’t scared. I turned and blinked, and light caught in my lashes. Starlight. It was beautiful. I stared into the big black, and it revealed itself to me.
My heart is with Brady. I totally FELT every single thing he felt. I was scared, for my family for myself. His mouth, his I gotta protect myself streak. What happened to him 3 year previous on that ship 😦 I felt everything. His love and lust for Cameron. The heartbreak he felt over what he thought about Chris. His fear of Kai-Ren.
“Fuck the universe. Fuck eternity and creation and a million colors boiling together in the black. What the hell was that to me? My heart broke either way.”
The relationship between Brady and Cameron starts off right from the bat. The connection that is formed. The shared thoughts, the dreams, the fears, the lust, the love. All connected between fingertips, skin, heartbeats, breathe and all within a ticking time clock, because it’s not gonna last. They only have days….
“Cam leaned down and brushed his lips against mine before he realized it was a kiss. A last kiss. It was over before I knew. ‘ I’ll miss you.’
“It’s more than that,” I said. My heart skipped a beat. “We gonna say it?”
“Yeah.” For a second his hair curtained his face; then he met my gaze again. ” I love you Brady.”
“Love you, Cam.”
“It made not fucking difference at all, but at least we got to say it once. “
The ending was a roller coaster of shit! Like how many times can you be thrown off your axis, have everything ripped away from you, and keep going on? You can and Brady proved it.
This book is angst. I loved it. It ended just right. It ended the way that I wanted it to end, the way that I hoped it would. Thank the Lord! I would love a novella, just a short 50 pager that lets me know they made it! How they made it and where they are right now. If anyone deserves the HEA Brady did!
“You’re my heartbeat, Brady.”