Vivaldi in the Dark (Vivaldi in the Dark #1) by Matthew J. Metzger



About the Book: 

Out-and-regretting-it comprehensive attendee Jayden Phillips turns his cast-iron plans for life upside-down by falling in love with private-school violinist Darren Peace, a sardonic boy with the craziest hair Jayden’s ever seen.

But all is not what it seems, and Jayden’s bullying problem becomes meaningless when he is confronted with what the music does to Darren. How do you stop a dangerous depression rooted in the same thing that makes someone what they are? Dark moods, blank apathy, and the undertow of self-loathing all simmer beneath Darren’s dry and beautiful veneer, and Jayden feels powerless to stop them.

Then a mugging gone wrong takes the music forcibly away, and Jayden is finally given the chance to change Darren’s life — and, quite literally, his mind.

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My Review: 

4 PG stars

So here’s the thing.

Usually YA books are just too “young” for me.


This book brought me home, kinda.

I’m Livvy. 19 and having a baby.
With no father in the picture.
I meet this man, who takes me and my boy on, and insists that he calls him dad.
Takes him to football games, watches sports, gives advice.

I’m Livvy.

You wouldn’t get it unless you read the story. But I felt like in reality it could be my world.

And while my son is straight, he’s fully white… where my husband, he’s fully black.

So you know Jayden, I FELT HIM. Almost like he was my own.

Bigots, and racists all have the same thing in common. They are all IGNORANT 

And now, in 2014, that shit just isn’t acceptable any more. But unfortunately, it still happens.
Which is sad, and shameful and disgusting.

I’m glad I’m Livvy. Cause you know what, she was freaking awesome.

And also, so freaking glad that I was too lazy to push my kids ;), to the point of depression 
because really, they need to strive to achieve their own goals. I can help, but I won’t hinder. EVER.
I wish all parents acted this way. Our future generations would be so much happier IMO.

My heart bled for Darren. I loved his character. His antics and sarcasm. His small little smiles.
He pained me when it was one of those days .

I just wish his POV delved a little deeper into his thoughts on Jayden.

I can say that I felt that Jayden loved Darren way more.
Can I say that?
Meh it’s how I felt.

The array of characters. Each of them brought something to the story.

Scott~ He was just awesome.

Charley~ I don’t know. I didn’t like the way she moved. How she was mad at the end. And we never got the why… I’m pretty sure it was what? Jealousy?

Livvy~ Well obvs she’s amazing, she’s me!

The dad~ God help me I’m blankin when it comes to his name right now~ But he was amazing too

Darren’s parents~ Just NO. NO.

This story, it’s not a sweet coming to age story, its really, well it’s just REAL.

Matthew J Metzger, he created a real world, with real issues, and he kept me entranced.

I can’t wait to delve into book 2, which brings us to the college years, which honestly BONUS POINTS to the author. Cause these 2 characters deserve to grow 2gether.

And then I saw there is a book 3 coming in May. Adult years maybe? I hope so!!


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